Waiting For Heather: Part Four

So there was Heather in my living room, twirling to the music, barefoot, a ballet skirt pulled on over her jeans. As things progressed she seemed to literally get higher, flightier, more frantically graceful, a buzzing Ariel with magic in every motion. Heather had always danced at parties, but she used to do it with eyes shut, in her own world, ignoring her audience, a strangely private performance in the middle of a crowded room. But now she danced with eyes wide open, coy and flirtatious, aware of every spectator.

Katie, on the other hand, only seemed to get lower the longer the party lasted, red faced and belligerent, a clumsy Caliban, drinking steadily, her forehead creased with her own thoughts as she stared into space, eyes half-lidded. Eventually she pulled herself up and lurched down the hall, to get sick in the bathroom I supposed.

After a while I realized that she hadn’t come back and followed her. When I heard her voice I couldn’t figure out who she was talking to, but then I saw the phone cord running under the closed door of the bedroom. It wasn’t hard to figure out who was on the other end and I swayed there, wondering what to do.

Hey, a voice came from behind me and I turned to see Heather, flushed and glowing, slightly out of breath, her ballet skirt crinkling as she got closer.

Heather

, I said as Katie’s querulous voice rose in anger and then collapsed again in sobs and endearments.

Wow

, Heather said. Katie told me, you know. About you guys.

Yeah?

I shrugged, glaring at the door. I guess there’s not that much to tell, is there?

No, I guess not.

She laughed as we listened to the one sided, bare intelligible conversation. You know those two, Charlie. They’ll never break up and they’ll never stay together.

That’s supposed to make me feel better?

Come on, so it’s not happening right now. You should just enjoy it when you can. It sounds like you two have been having a pretty good time since I’ve been gone.

Well, I’m not having a very good time tonight.

Hey, what about me? I’m here. Aren’t you glad to see me?

And it was true, at that moment, looking at Heather, it didn’t seem to matter so much to me anymore that Katie was talking to Bill in my bedroom. You know I am. You wouldn’t believe how I’ve been sitting here waiting the last few days… I paused, not entirely trusting my inebriated self. I mean, I’ve been meaning to tell you how, uh, great it is that you’re back.

Good. Now you’ve told me. She laughed again, taking my arm. Come on, let’s get out of here. Let’s go for a walk.

A walk?

Yeah, a walk. There must be someplace to walk around here.

Yeah, I mean, sure…

Katie’s voice rose up again as we started back down the hall.

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Crime Beat: He’s Got Stinky!

Lovers’ spat turns into assault case

A lovers’ quarrel escalated into a dog-napping and assault complaint in Ann Arbor early Sunday morning, city police said.

Officers responded to a fight call in the 100 block of South Fourth Avenue at about 5 a.m. and while en route were advised of a related larceny of dog complaint.

Officers found a 22-year-old Novi man who said he and his small dog, Stinky, were dropped off by his mother in the city Saturday night. He said he and his dog got into his boyfriend’s car on their way to meet friends.

After going to a few bars, the couple got into an argument and the boyfriend, a 23-year-old La Salle man, left in his vehicle, with the dog.

The victim telephoned him and asked him to return the dog in the area of North Fourth Avenue and Catherine Street. When the boyfriend returned, the victim reported he took his boyfriend’s car keys because he had had too much to drink.

The boyfriend then refused to give the dog back. They scuffled briefly and the victim fell to the ground.

The boyfriend told police he only took the dog in order to get his car keys back. The officer helped the two agree to return their property to each other.

And now for something completely different – here’s a couple of headlines from The Free Press:

Baby’s body burned in grill

Woman’s headless body is discovered in Detroit sewer

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Rilke’s 25th (dub)

end, Heatherwell, what I have to offer today is this dub of Rilke’s 25th Sonnet to Orpheus:

25

Again I remember you
Who I loved like a flower
With an unknown name
Yet I’ll show you to them
My lovely playmate of the city
Taken so early from this world
A dancer at first then
Your supple body hesitated
As if your youth were cast
In bronze; sorrowful, listening
For the music from eternity
Which sank into your blood
Sickness drew near and
The darkened blood, altered
Already mastered by shadows
Could not wait but surged
Toward its natural end
Again and again it glittered
Earthy, interrupted by dark disaster
Until after the terrible pounding
You entered that desolate open door

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Giving Thanksgiving

On this Thanksgiving:

I thank God that I live in a country that follows my personal philosophy: love God and smash your enemy in the mouth if you think they might have something you don’t want them to have and might possibly be thinking of using it against you or your friends, and not be sorry about it even if they didn’t have it and you pretty much lied about them having it in the first place. That’s America!

I thank God that I have friends who help me to enjoy the good things in life, especially the late Taffy and Candi who entertained me and helped me manage an unexpected windfall and shielded me from those who objected to me helping myself to the American dream at the local bank, helping me to define my life’s purpose, mission and vocation, allowing my family to progress.

Finally, I thank God for my five daughters – Danneya, Sherena, Aldenya, Britenee and Mariah, for trusting and supporting me even when they saw me covered with blood, with a meat clever in one hand and Taffy’s head in the other. I am so proud and happy that that dire circumstance did not fill them with a spirit of fear or bitterness.

Instead, they are tenacious and determined to prove my innocence and free me by any means necessary from my unfair and unjust circumstances.

I also thank God for lime jello Thursdays here at the pen.

 

Danold Elliot, Milan

 

 

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Callipygian Vestal

Callipygian vestal

Of the incandescent division

My little cooch dancer

In the middle of something

That hasn’t started yet

The reflection of the trees

On the windshield

A Pythia tripod prophesy

A gleaming sword

Half drawn

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Entropy

Entropy

 

Your information held

Just the right degree

Of strangeness

 

There was enough noise

Woven into the pattern

To startle imagination

 

But how quickly

Your sinuous line

Went dead

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Snappy

Woman: So all you do is sit here and read books all day?

Snappy Bookseller: Well, I answer stupid questions too…

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Bo: A Tribute for the Ages

Wow, time happens, doesn’t it? It’s really hard to believe that it was just about a year ago that my man Bo Schembechler passed, that the clock in the big house of that maize and blue heart of his finally reached double zero. No overtimes this season, Coach! I don’t think anyone anywhere has suffered such a loss as Michigan fans did that day, at least not since another big fella was nailed up to his own goal post a couple of thousands of years ago. I can practically hear Bo’s crazy gruff voice right now, and if we were in his office at this moment I just know what he would say, probably those wise last words he said to me the last time we were together – Hey, you get the hell out of here! Who the hell let you into this building, you freak! Lloyd, Lloyd, call security, there’s a trespasser in my office! Ha, ha! That Bo! Never one to beat about the bush. Good times. A tip of the winged helmet to you, my friend, because I know you’re wearing those wings on your back now.

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Quote Bag: Two Things

This morning I was reading TechGnosis by Erik Davis, a very interesting book that I’ll probably write more about, when I came across a passage that seemed very pertinent to yesterday’s post about modern horror and Stefan Grabinski, who, it’s interesting to note, set many of his stories in trains:

Both religion and the occult derive much of their power from simultaneously stimulating and managing dread: the anxieties that dog the perpetually shifting boundaries of the self, and especially the ultimate borderland of death. As new technologies begin to remold these very same boundaries, the shadows, doubles, and dark reflections that haunt human identity begin to leak outside the self as well, many of them taking up residence in the virtual spaces opened up by the new technologies.

And now for something completely different –

Even though he was a pagan, in the Middle Ages the Roman poet Virgil was considered to be prophet and magus due to the misreading of an obscure passage in The Aeneid allegedly foretelling the birth of Jesus. The Aeneid was held to be an inspired, mystical text whose meaning went deep below the surface. Manuscripts of it were used for divinatory bibliomancy, where passages chosen at random were held to have a symbolic meaning germane to the question at hand. Well, ever since I heard that I picked up different translations whenever I could find them. I have more than enough now thank you, but when ever I come across one I open it at random to see what it has to say. Today when a copy fell off the top of a stack I jostled I opened it and found the delightful tale of Camilla, who as a baby was thrown across a river tied to the shaft of a spear by her father in order to escape his enemies and thereafter consecrated to the virgin huntress Diana and trained as a warrior (translation by C. Day Lewis):

Right in the thick of the slaughter, with one breast bared for the fray,

Like an Amazon was exulting the archeress, Camilla.

Now she delivers a quick fire of whippy javelins, now unwearied

She whirls a powerful battle axe with her right hand.

Tapping her shoulder, hung the gold bow, Diana’s weapon.

Even when she was driven back and in flight, she loosed her shafts

At the foe as she fled, turning the bow round to shoot them.

Her bodyguard kept close about her – the maiden Larina,

Tulla, Tarpeia, who brandished a battle-axe of bronze –

Italian girls, whom the godlike Camilla had chosen to grace

Her retinue: good supporters they were in peace and war.

They resembled the Amazon women of Thrace when they go to battle

In blazoned armor, their horse-hooves stamping the frozen river Thermodon,

Escorting queen Hippolyta, or the martial Penthesilea when she returns

From a war in her chariot, a woman-host with crescent shaped bucklers

Screaming around her in triumph. Ferocious Camilla,

Whom first did your hand lay low? Whom last?

How many men did you strike to the earth, dying?

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The Dark Domain by Stefan Grabinski

Wow. I’ve been reading books for over forty years, have been certified as a Master of Language and Literature by the State of Minnesota, toiled in the new and used book biz for twenty years and have therefore been exposed to a dizzying array of literary talent – but yet, despite all that, every so often I come across a writer I’d never heard of who absolutely blows me away. I don’t feel that abashed about STEFAN GRABINSKI (1887- 1936) however, as, unjust as it may be, he is a fairly obscure author in the States. Sure he has the obligatory devotional website and Wikipedia article but even these are rather meager compared to most every other author you could think of. I’ve read a lot of horror anthologies, but he’s not exactly well represented in those and has exactly one book in print at the moment.

But what a book. THE DARK DOMAIN is yet another of those fantastic European Classics from sainted DAEDALUS press. I read the first story in it Fumes and my jaw dropped at its mind blowing, brilliant brew of dread, sex, folklore and violence. Yowzah! Not every story is as good as that, but there are no clinkers in the collection, and one excellent, unsettling tale follows another in a awe inspiring lineup. Grabinski mines the unsettled, haunted quality of modern life to find a nightmare in consciousness itself. To say he writes about the supernatural is like saying Kafka wrote about bugs. He resembles Arthur Machen and Guy De Maupassant in his unearthing of the horror lurking in the details of everyday existence, and even brings to mind the uber-genius Edgar Poe in exploring the twilight ambiguity of the human mind, the nexus of the supernatural and the insane, where one’s own self is the ultimate bogeyman. He also understands the relationship between the horrific and the erotic in a way that anticipates the very best of Clive Barker and exposes Steven King as the pimply faced forever arrested adolescent he is. My favorite story, Szamota’s Mistress, is at once deeply symbolic, deeply sexy and scary as hell – you could write a thousand essays on it from every conceivable lit-crit angle (some savvy feminist should scarf this one up for a thesis) but you’re better off just reading the darn thing.

And why haven’t I heard of this dude before? Part of it is America’s skittishness to approach authors with funny names from smaller countries who write in not widely spoken languages. Thank heaven for publishers who occasionally make an effort to systematically present work from previously under represented parts of the world. There was a amazing series from Penguin a while back called "Writers from the Other Europe" edited by Philip Roth which, like Daedalus’s European Classics series, showed both what a fertile and productive place for literature countries like Poland and Czechoslovakia were and how many great books are marginalized by Eastern Europe’s unhappy history. This is a real shame, but, selfishly speaking, it always turns UBU on to find a rich, new, relatively undisturbed vein of fantastic writing.

I’m not kidding – Grabinski is the real deal. I keep buying copies of The Dark Domain to give away and stock, and if you like a mind blowing highbrow creep show I’d run out and get one too. Here’s a couple of passages that I particularly liked:

Rastawiecki divided his gaiety among them. Some peculiar blindness threw an even thicker curtain over the duplicitous behavior of his companion, some strange indulgence made him ignore his wife’s deportment. Maybe he never had a reason to be suspicious of Nuna’s flightiness and that’s why he acted thus. Maybe he didn’t yet know the sex demon, suppressed under superficial domesticity, and had never been aware of its corrupting influence and deceitfulness. A fatal spell unfolded these three people in its domain and drove them toward frenzy and abandonment – one saw it in the spasmodic movements of Nuna’s body, the blood-shot eyes of her admirer, the sardonic grimace of the husband’s lips.

And if, indeed, there is nothing beyond the corner? Who can affirm if beyond so-called "reality" anything exists at all? Beyond a reality that I have probably created? As long as I’m steeped in this reality up to my neck, as long as it is sufficient for me – everything is tolerable. But what would happen if I wanted one day to lean out of my safe environment and glance beyond its borders?

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