A Leak In The Safe

Here present with her
Consciously remember
Mirror reflective aware
Witness the sweetness
Above all else
No so much what
She’s saying but
Her voice, the way
She expresses herself
An experiment in
How to manage
This feeling – Even
Enjoy it make
It fruitful
Even remembering how
She shoved the blade in
Me while I hugged her
What is certain is that we
Test each other’s limits as
Good friends do
Whatever else she keeps
Coming back for more

Can’t admit what she knows &
Feels until I can speak
To the inviolate part of her
Inaccessible even to herself
I’ve insisted on a unique relationship
As endless friend & old acquaintance
Despite weak compulsion on her part
The Perfected One The Inscrutable One
That blade deep in me
It’s just two of us
In this room alone
She found her dead brother’s
Chagall poster still rolled up &
Now it’s hanging over her bed
She thinks if someone doesn’t
Tell her something it means
They don’t want to tell her
Something
Discussing herself
Dispassionately 121 lbs.
Never wore a belt
She is not my subject
She is the center of
The circle indefinable
The compass that unites
She stands apart
From any veil
With amused interest
In the prickly carnality
Of her own body
It’s her duty to be that way
& my duty to know & say
You’re divine
She gives a derisive snort
With little emotional valence
But
At moments like this
In front of this adored
Chimerical dream being
Who cares