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Snow Fall
The two things I don’t like about a big snowfall are cross country skis and snow blowers — or maybe just the self satisfied smirks on them that use them….
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The George Romero Scenario
It’s the George Romero scenario – all off a sudden there are zombies everywhere. I rack my twelve gauge and head over to Virginia’s house, blowing away the creatures I can’t avoid.
On the way it occurs to me that this is simply an especially literal example of what I’ve spent so much time and effort doing – trying to prevent her from becoming one of the living dead herd.
When I get there she’s just sitting and watching the madness out of her window, strangely blase about the whole thing. A group of her transformed jock friends make a concerted lurch for the house, but they’re fairly easy to beat back.
I turn to tell her that we’d better come up with another plan because I’m almost out of shells only to see the back door open as she walks away – now that they’ve taken over she wants to fit in and be a brain eating ghoul like everybody else.
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Fyodor Sologub
Here you are waiting for the Beautiful Lady, and you don’t know that her beauty is fatal. Two years you’ve lived in my room, and never before have you stared out the window in this way, lost in thought. Apparently your turn has come. Come away from the window before it is too late, don’t breath in the evil breath of these insidious flowers, and don’t wait for the Beautiful Lady to arrive under your window and enchant you. She will come, She will enchant you, and you will follow whither you’d not want to go.
Her bare arms were raised to the crown of black braids encircling her head, for just at that moment she was pinning a bright vermillion flower to her hair. Her thin, short tunic was fastened at her shoulders with a golden clasp. Her legs, lightly tanned and bare to the knee, were as shapely as the legs of a resurrected goddess. The youth’s heart began to pound, and forgetting all caution and modesty, he rushed back to the window and gazed greedily at the lovely vision. The Beautiful Lady threw a quick, fiery glance in his direction – her eyes flashed a dark blue from beneath black, even brows – and her smile was tender and arch.
But there were women among the pedestrians and riders, and their presence gave the picture a cryptic, anxious meaning. They were going about their errands and to all appearances were absolutely ordinary and unremarkable, but Pavel saw their strange and terrifying particularity: they were different, alien from the rest of the crowd and did not blend into it, but were like sparks in the midst of darkness. And everything was for them: the streets, houses and people, everything gravitated towards them, thirsted for them – without understanding them.
If there are happy people; if there are times when the mad sun of joyousness shines on them, carrying them off in a sweet whirl of ecstasy to undreamt of lands – then where are the words to tell about it? And if there is such a thing as truly bewitching beauty, how can one describe it?
– Fyodor Sologub
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Illumination
It’s early – ten a.m. – driving in Heather’s station wagon, idly circling the lakes, half heartedly thinking about stopping at the pier, but then trying to follow a train, catching up to it here and there as it thunders overhead above the one way streets, the tape deck blasting Iggy and Van Morrison. Ellen’s been paranoid all morning, suspicious after the sight of a police car way back when, but Heather’s next to her in the front seat, still rolling slim, spare joints on the lined page of the notebook in her lap. Hey, Heather Ellen says, holding a burning number surreptitiously under the wheel. Write this down.
Huh, sure. Heather says, smoothing a clear place on the paper, dope debris and seeds cascading to the floor. Wait…hold on a minute. Where’s that pen? After much pocket and purse rifling it’s found on the seat between Heather’s legs. O.K., O.K., go ahead.
Watch it, Heather, you’re getting weed all over the place.
What’s the difference
Heather says, doodling spirals on the paper. It’s my car. Nobody cares.
Well, the cops care.
Ellen slows at the intersection then comes to a conspicuously complete stop at the stop sign. Besides, that stuff costs money. Just because we’ve got a bunch at the moment doesn’t mean you can throw it around. Slowly she turns left and heads up the hill. If you think for…
All right, All right Ellen we get it…
Jane interrupts, leaning up between the seats from the back. What did you want her to write down, anyway?
Oh, yeah, wait a minute. I’ve got to… The car turns and accelerates down Conservatory. Ready?
Heather nods, pen poised.
Ellen squints, taking a meditative hit on the still lit joint. Here we go:
After illumination
All sensation
Becomes ecstatic
Then she farts.
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Echo Horsemouth
The Jewel in the Lotus
The Mirror of the World
The Nervy Grin of Beauty
The Lady of the Ocean of Foreknowledge
The Noble Apocalypse Finder
The Cleaner of the Misty Moon
The Illusive Lion
Moist Mother Earth
The Wheel of Circling Light
The Elfmound of Nechtan’s Wife
The Fair of the Great Boar
The Banner of Obtained Wisdom
The Assembly of Mild and Angry Tutelary Deities
The Holy Doctrine of the Great End
Three Rough Stones Under a Rainy Sky
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Attendant Ruminations
Attendant Ruminations
She’s so confident Louis Brooks banged blonde getting silver fish bowl head luscious black jacketed ideal hemline provocative white hose spikey black heels supercilious smile favoring me so she can write a check to get out of the parking structure beauty’s sucker I let her thinking just let me be able to describe her after she’s gone but I can only remember this peculiar sheen audi screeching as she stops by the window again never stopping talking on her phone Kirsten Maelstrom her name grinning still dripping charm a bit vague around the edges obviously in the middle of a long night have fun I say I will she answers
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RidinGraves
Certainty about Graves’s "disintegration" – by which he meant "disintegration of my post-war personality" – began to crystallize rapidly in his mind as soon as he had got to know Laura Riding, whose personality – however anyone may wish to assess it – was, although unhymned except by him, both explosively freakish and characterized by acute though not learned intelligence.
– Martin Seymour-Smith
But there was the Devil himself. Having accepted her invitation to sit down and warm himself, he was obviously waiting for her to say something. So she said "Now what do you want?" "My dear," he answered with a confidential slant of his head, "I want nothing but your happiness." "Humph!" she snapped at him, "you can’t have it."
– Laura Riding
Alas for obstinate doubt: the dread
Of error in supposing my heart freed,
All care for her stone dead!
Ineffably will shine the hills and radiant coast
Of early mornings when she is gone indeed,
Her divine elements disbanded, disembodied
And through the misty orchards in love spread –
When she is gone indeed –
But still among them moves her restless ghost.
– Robert Graves
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The Fiery Angel by Valery Bruisov
The vast worldwide audience of RADIOFREEUBU is not doubt weary of my constant touting of these great Dedalus books, but I can’t help it – they just keep blowing me away! My latest fantastic find is Valery Bruisov’s 1908 work The Fiery Angel. It’s a historical novel set in the sixteenth century, the putative confessions of Rupprecht, a drifter who has just returned to Germany, flush from his adventures in the New World. One night while staying at an inn he hears a commotion in the room next door and rushes in to find the fascinating Renata, who at that moment is writing on the floor, the victim of demonic possession. Rupprecht is in turn possessed by Renata, who draws him into her compulsive, occult search for her lost love Count Heinrich, who may or may not be the embodiment of Madiel, the angel who has been appearing to her since childhood.
Although I was enthralled with Fiery Angel from the start, it’s so unusual that it took me a while to see it for what it is – a Decadent novel that is both representative and atypical. The seeds of the flower of evil that was the historical aesthetic movement known as Decadence blew all over the world and developed different growths depending on prevailing conditions and the native soil. Russian literature has, from the beginning, been spiritual and very serious (even in its humor), cynical and satiric, but never ironic, and Bruisov, as the leader of Russian Decadence, brought a decidedly Russian flavor to his version of it. Fiery Angel displays many of the core elements of Decadence such as an enigmatic, doomed femme fatale who sadistically manipulates her willing victim and an preoccupation with Satanism and the occult, but it also has an energy and earnestness that’s the farthest thing from typical fin de siecle ennui. Flaubert’s Salammbo and Louys’s Aphrodite, the paradigmatic Decadent historicals, are set in a glittering pagan world and told in a fragmentary, impressionist manner, while Bruisov’s work takes place in the earthy Reformation, and his strange story unfolds with deliberate conventionality and concreteness.
And what a story – while the French strived for brief perfection and unity, Fiery Angel is impressive in it’s variety and completeness – it’s got (among other things) a witches’s Sabbath, a magical ceremony of invocation, Cornelius Agrippa, Dr. Faustus and Mephistophilis, and ends in a convent full of possessed nuns who are soon to be put to the rack. It’s a bravura performance, and the author’s sure hand and encyclopedic knowledge result in an extraordinary, one of a kind work.
Here’s a few passages that I particularly dug, mostly in the femme fatale line:
Everything in her face was irregular, but there was in it a charm, distilled, perhaps, by some magic means, or with the aid of some Cleopatrian mystery.
All the gayness, all the lack of ceremony with which we conversed in the beech forest, had now evaporated, leaving the bottoms of our souls dry. I felt myself gradually lapsing into a condition of dumb helplessness, and it seemed to me as if I could now neither utter a word or attempt a movement. Thus, probably, feel animals when they grow paralyzed beneath the staring eye of the rattlesnake.
I felt already that I lacked the strength to leave Renata, that I either had been charmed to her by some magic power, or borne naturally into gentle bondage by the Mother of Love – the Cyprian.
And I even found in this torturing nearness a special charm and sweetness, as if one were to enjoy the deep cuts of a deep blade insensibly dividing the flesh.
Mystic knowledge is called so not because it is being willfully concealed, but because it is of its nature hidden, in symbols. We have no peculiar truth, but we have emblems bequeathed to us as a heritage by antiquity, by that first people of the earth that lived in commerce with God and His angels. Those people knew not the shadows of matter, but matter itself, and thus the symbols they left behind exactly express the substance of being.
Renata did not utter another word, and lowered her eyelashes, while I stayed at her feet, motionless, resting my head against the window-ledge, my eyes raised to the figure sitting there, to the beloved, cherished, though irregular features, sinking every moment once more deeper and deeper into their charm, as if deeper and deeper into the depths of a bottomless whirlpool. I gazed on this woman, whom only yesterday I had caressed with all the imaginable busses of a contented lover, and to whose hand, today, I dared not even touch my reverent lips, and felt radiate from her whole being a witching power that locked all my desires within its spell.
Do not forget that man is created in the image and similitude of the Creator Himself, and therefore there are elements in him incomprehensible not only to demons, but to angels as well. Angels and demons can strive only for their own bliss, the first – to the glory of God, the second – to the glory of Evil, but a man can seek sorrow and suffering, and even death itself.
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Angel’s Elegy
Angel’s Elegy
How cooperative the universe
When angels answer the call
Appearing at the head of the table
Shining silver dripping gold
They feel a disconnect here
Their Father never allows them
To speak their minds
Or follow their hearts
Reaching out is not something
They possess the humanness to do
We spark their understanding
To them we’re works in progress
A walk through the unknown
They’re grateful we remember
All the things they’ve forgotten
Only we can help them
Discover themselves
Our words make them cry
If only tears of joy
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