Icicle

sa6When I was editor of the literary magazine at school Stacy submitted a story about a girl who stabs another girl with an icicle in the ladies’ room, then puts it under hot water in the sink and, voila, no more murder weapon. In one way it was original, because she’d come up with the idea herself, but in another way it wasn’t, because a lot of other people had thought of the same idea before her. We accepted it because, like everything else she did, it was very well done, and also simply because she was Stacy, and no one would dream of rejecting Stacy. Eventually, however, she withdrew it, maybe because she realized it was hackneyed, or maybe because she didn’t want to publish a story that showed she’d given serious thought to stabbing a girl in the ladies’ room.

But I’ve never been able to get that icicle out of my mind – it was such a perfect objective correlative for Stacy herself, long and slim and utterly cool, if not downright cold. Since she was our star swimmer, the image of her as an icicle slicing through the water was nothing short of irresistible.

The piece she submitted in its place was much better and also centered around water. It was the stark, limpid story of a boy who comes to to find himself floating in a life vest in the middle of the ocean, overwhelmed by the enormity of the starry, nighttime sky as he gradually recollects the sea voyage, storm and shipwreck that have stranded him there, with the final, strangely comforting realization that he’s going to die, completely alone with no one else in sight. With the exception of a few minor discordant clanks from colliding mixed metaphors, it’s remarkably straightforward, free of the plot twists and sentimental histrionics the rest of us were so fond of. What comes through most powerfully is the total isolation of the boy, uprooted, unmoored and ultimately doomed by disaster. It was a surprising thing to be the product of a girl so popular and accomplished, but perhaps less so when you thought about it – it couldn’t have been easy to be so clearly superior, head and shoulders above her peers both athletically and socially, the one person who never lost a race or pined for a classmate, marooned among us, chafing to get out into the wider world and truly test herself.

She graduated a year early, went to a really good college, and what she accomplished in the wider world was noteworthy enough, if not exactly what any of us, Stacy included, would have predicted. But that’s another story…

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A Look Bizarre [Spam Poem]

While using term “manufacturing defect” looks like orlando words that opens the door for coming back attire at Abercrombie. You can examine the A F symbol on the garments with the suggestions to recognize the actual symbol. In shaving your face your actual chest area, You reasonably wish to get rid of some stomach or you only have a look bizarre. We will honour the Greater Power that we believe in, he explains, and we be inspired to release resentment and emotional pain, while herbal steam clears away our toxins. Pair your jeans with a fun bright top, or keep them classy with a silky blouse and a blazer.

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2 Jacks a Glowin’

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Walk

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Resist the Humans

We must resist the humans those

Pesky individuals assuming horrific forms

Base and guileful abiders on the earth

A warped strain vomited from the jaws of Hell

Remember their wandering evil

Their infestation oppression possession

Their extreme joy in exsanguination

Their notational abilities and systematic means

To overthrow the eternal with the

Spooky actions of their commodity world

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Captive White Girl

ccaptiveErastus Dow Palmer

Albany Institute of History & Art

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PGM III

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Alley, Albany

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Uncertainty by Michael Larsen

I wrote a little while ago about the delightfully random way books come into my hands. To paraphrase Poe, I cannot, for my soul remember how, when, or even precisely where I first became acquainted with Michael Larsen’s Uncertainty, but I can certainly say that I’m glad it did. I see a lot of books, and an impossibly large number of them look like something I wouldn’t mind reading. I guess what tipped the scales for Uncertainty was Kirkus Reviews description of it as “a whodunit with echoes of Robbe-Grillet, John Hawkes, William Gibson, and J.P. Smith,” and the description of the plot as a guy trying to solve the murder of his girlfriend, his search especially urgent because he’s the chief suspect. It’s the Laura trope, one I’m especially fond of, because the understanding of the character of the departed becomes the solution of the mystery, that character, of course, being much more ambiguous that the searcher imagines. But in the European tradition there’s an added philosophical layer, the usual question of if the past or even (gasp) reality itself is ever really truly comprehensible, or becomes more uncertain the closer you examine it, but in this case there is added the more modern complication of the further uncertainty of technology and the increasing ability, in a digital age, of technology to manipulate apparent “reality.”  In other words, the anxiety that appears to be affecting a lot of shaky psyches these days – is this real or some kind of virtual TV show? The thriller is the dominate contemporary form of narrative, mostly because it’s so flexible and so effective. The protagonist of Uncertainty follows the ambiguous path in a sex and drugs haze, invoking for me Brett Easton Ellis or Jerzy Kosinski. Larsen is remarkably prescient about the problem of authenticity in our cyber-world, but pulls back from the full Blow-up in his resolution, opting instead for the usual pages of explication from a sneering villain and even a car chase. The final vision is dark enough, however, to qualify the book as a work of Virtual Noir.

Uncertainty was a smash in Larsen’s native Denmark when it appeared in 1994 and was at least well received when it was translated here a couple of years later. Although he probably benefited from fellow Dane Peter Hoeg’s Smilla’s Sense of Snow, it’s bad timing that he was too early for the current “Nordic Noir” craze initiated by that crazy female with the dragon tattoo, as Uncertainty appears to be Larsen’s only book to be translated and has now gone out of print. It’s readily available used, however, and I would certainly recommend picking up a copy if you see one. In the interim, here are a few choice passages I hope you will enjoy:

Everything’s so disconnected. Her face with its polite smile. Her impeccable manners, impeccable façade. And underneath, her lust.

One is drawn magnetically to the edges of the shadow, but then one becomes wary.

TV is light: it’s the only medium that emits light; that’s the secret of our fascination with it.

Perhaps we’re a kind of mutation, the first of a generation that has become fixated on looking, and whose greatest revelation is also its curse: that life can only be looked at.

 

Progress is a leech, a parasite whose greatest accomplishment is to be able to allay, at a later date, all the catastrophe it creates.

 

When the world as we know it becomes formulized into an artificial universe, it’ll seem as incomprehensible as it does today. Images will pour down like multicolored rain from satellites dotting the sky like prisms.

 

The most important thing is to acknowledge beauty and preserve the ability to be fascinated. If you can see the beauty even in what you most despise, you have a chance of mastering it.

 

You’ve assured yourself a synthetic immortality, Monique. You’ll crackle across thousands of screens in the New World. They’ve reconstructed you and given you eternal life in a world that unites the seemingly incompatible: numbers and images. You’ve become the sum total of other people’s fantasies, a mathematical problem in the heads of sick people.

 

Brain-dead narcissists lead us through idiotic television games, news programs bring us to war zones with images of the wounded and mutilated, but the only thing that bothers us is that no one dies when we press the remote. But that’ll come too. It’s on its way.

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